Things have calmed down around here now that the rush of Christmas is over. We had a bit of a stressful holiday, with our washing machine flooding our kitchen 3 days before Christmas. And I had some health issues and a change in some family dynamics that left me feeling drained emotionally. I was so ready to say goodbye to 2014! Yet I know that I am not guaranteed a better year.
However, when we open our hands fully to God, surrendering complete control in all areas, He can send rainbows. Storms do not last forever! Our first rainbow this year came when a couple at Joey’s office offered us the free use of their timeshare so we can attend Andrew’s basketball tournament. An almost completely free family vacation! Our first! The kids are so excited. And the timeshare is in Branson. Woohoo! Joey and I both teared up when this man volunteered his condo.
The second rainbow occurred at the dentist office. An unexpected place for a miracle! I was scheduled to have two cavities filled and was really dreading it. My last experience with that was a complete disaster. As I sat in the dentist chair, the Dr. examined my mouth before administering the anesthesia. He found no evidence of the cavities. So he ordered a set of x-rays to be taken and they revealed no cavities either. My teeth were perfectly healthy! The Dr. said very rarely they have problems with x-ray films showing false cavities. But I know this was truly God’s handiwork. When we have faith in God, we can expect supernatural rescues or supernatural perseverance through trials (Hebrews 11:32-38.) God confirmed to me that I can trust Him to handle anything! Keep on in the faith! So, slowly my hope is building for the coming year.
School dynamics have changed this week with the addition of a new student.
Jacob has learned to climb the baby gate. And he wants to stay in the room with us almost the whole time. And I thought the school room was messy before!
I had the kids do an art lesson/project this week. As part of art study, I buy famous artist coloring books and big coffee table books of the author’s works. This year, I introduced them to Monet. I photocopied whichever picture they chose from the coloring book and had them study the corresponding piece in the big book. Then, I had them paint in the style of the artist. I bought really tiny brushes so they could imitate the dots Monet used.
The end result of their paintings didn’t look much different than when they paint with regular brushes. And that probably has more to do with the media of the paint: tempera vs. oils. But, they did come away with an appreciation for the perseverance needed to create a masterpiece. Their hands got tired of making dots and they said this method would take them forever!
Also, this week I hung a stained glass in my house. My very talented cousin, Katherine, made this for me in honor of Cora.
She also put it in the frame. Gorgeous!
I put this in the schoolroom, which was the only living space room that didn’t have a memento of her. I can also stand at my stove in the kitchen and see this hanging up. I no longer cry often about Cora. But the times I do seem strange to me.
I visited a doctor’s office this week and the nurse mentioned some health issues last July and said, “I see they were probably related to hormones.” I knew that in my file was information about the stillbirth. Eventually, we made some friend connections in town and we talked about people we both knew who had buried their babies. She never mentioned my situation specifically. Perhaps she was waiting on me to volunteer the story. But, I didn’t. Maybe I should have. On the way home, I started crying about Cora. Grief can be confusing and unexpected!
Well, I’ll end this post with some snapshots of Jacob, taken in about 1 minute time span. He has the most expressive face out of all my children! The apron he’s wearing was mine when I was a little girl.